Car troubles...again

Today was a pretty good day for me & the boys, except for the Durango is going out again. We got up this morning & went to church (the message was about finding a promise from God in the bible and holding to it, laboring to get His word in our heart so he can manifest himself to us). If those are big words and hard to understand, sorry, but you churchgoers out there feel me, right? I have many promises I'm standing on right now, such as prosperity for my company, getting my store & delivery van this year, getting outta debt, my mom & dad getting back together, someone who's very close to me - you know who you are - getting off drugs and on the right track. Right now I'm at the point where I'm trying to just let go of worry & stress, do my part, and let God do his part.

Anyways on the way home my truck started acting up again. For those of you who don't know, I have a 1998 Dodge Durango that I just purchased in January of this year (I was in a bad MVA in December and my 4Runner was totaled). And ever since then I have had nothing but problems with it. The guy that sold it to me totally lied about the condition of it and now I'm stuck with a lemon. So far I've had to replace the transmission, brakes & engine computer and now it looks like the clutch (or so I've been told) is going out. My uncle - a mechanic - is coming to take a look at it tomorrow, but man, I'm about out of money because of what I've poured into it already. This really sucks because not only do I need my truck to get my kids to & from school, but also to make my business deliveries.

I run a company - Fruit Arrangements by Design - and what I do is make fruit bouquets and chocolate dipped arrangements. I love what I do. It's a lot of fun and I'm very passionate about it: making sure I have the best fruit on hand, making sure the bouquet is perfect and beautiful. I love to get feedback from my customers telling me how much they loved my product, the reaction they got from their guests, how delicious it tasted. It makes me happy to make them happy.

So a part of my job is making the deliveries. Since I don't currently have my own store yet - that's one of the things I'm waiting on the Lord to bless me with - and I rent out kitchen space, I only offer delivery. Once I get my store I can offer customers the option to come and pick it up if they want to. So without a dependable vehicle, making those deliveries is tough. A few weeks ago when the engine computer went out my sister was gracious enough to let me borrow her car during the day while she was at work, but even then I had to find a way to get to where she was so me & the boys had to take a cab from our house to her job which cost $24 every day for a week! Now don't get the wrong idea...even though I own my own business I am by no means rich or well off. It's still new and I'm still trying to get customers and grow it and barely make enough to cover my business expenses and personal bills. So this added expense threw my budget way off.

Long story short I'm hoping this new problem with the truck doesn't cost me too much because honestly, I don't have it. I wish my dream car - a brand new, white Toyota Land Cruiser - would fall out of the sky and into my driveway so I could finally just be done with this headache.

Well, thank you for listening to me complain. Though I don't think of myself as much of a whiner, somehow that all changes when I'm typing, and I'm not sure why. I'm about to call my sister now and see if I can borrow her car for tomorrow.